Now..

I don't know up from down.
I don't know normal from un normal.
I don't know why I feel like I do.
I don't know why I always feel poopy.
OH WAAIT.
Its because of stupid jerky boys that bring me down.
That say they don't talk to me for a certain reason...
Dear Lord.

Early morning play practice tomorrow.. I'll be able to forget everything and just dance.. (:

Helping her, not me

I've giving up. Its so hard to get things the way I want it. You know what I mean?
So I've decided that I'm going to be helping my friends more, instead of myself.

Like asking if someone would want to go to Farewell with Senorita Markers, instead of asking about myself.

Its kind of cool. :3

Raaandom (;

Agent P!

<3

Braaaid :D

I NEED TOMSS.

Hot. <3

<3

I want a violin made out of Zebra wood.

Aye <3

Oh my gosh, my new favorite band. So freakin hot.

<3333

I cant stop listening to this sexyness.

I'm editing to this song... I love it.

Randomness is my specialty.

Gather round.

Welcome class, come on it. Today you may sit where ever you want.

Now that you've been seated, look around. Notice how the classroom suddenly got split into two groups? And one is obviously louder than the one you are in. Whenever you see this big group together, do you ever feel alone? Or that no one cares?
I am here today to talk about cliques and being popular.

Theres this quote from Wicked (Those songs have been running through my head nonstop these days):
"Are people born wicked? Or do they have wickedness thrust upon them?"
Now, I've changed this up a bit to have it fit our problem.
"Are people born 'popular'? Or do they have 'popular-ness' thrust upon them?"See what I did there?
So now, lets define a popular person.
For me and 'popular' people I know, I consider popular meaning you have the best clothes, the best make-up, you curse, you wear waay too much make-up, you are uber loud, you have a boyfriend, you flirt all the time, you dress or act slutty just to get attention, you complain about the smallest things when others have bigger problems, and you ignore people below you.

Yes, everyone has once wished or wanted to be popular. I sure know I have.
It seems like popular people have it all. They always get to go out with the guys they want. They always get attention.
I suppose that is jealousy.

Which brings me to another thing.
Cliques.
To me, a clique is a group of people (normally popular) that exclude people.
But technically, a clique is just a group of people.
With my group of friends, I suppose we could be called a clique. But if someone comes over to us, we will talk with them and involve them with us. If I went over to try and talk to a 'popular' clique, I'd be ignored. Trust me, it has happened before.

Which leads me to friends.
My freinds are the best thing that EVER happened to me. I love them. I would do anything for them. Me and my two best friends (Nate and Tran) even came up with our own 'gang'.
They make me smile so much.

And I know that all my other friends will never leave me to go be 'popular'.
If that has happened to you, I'm here if you need to vent/talk. Its happened to me, and I know it sucks.

There will always be 'popular' people. They will always seem to have the nice clothes and make-up that you never have. But most likely, not being popular is better. You should rather be popular for your personality, not your looks. Popular people can be real snobs and jerks. And I bet you, half of their friends wouldn't bail them out of jail. Real friends would.
So next time you want to be popular, think about it more.

Ta ta for now <3

Yesterday was Thursday.

So, yesterday was actually pretty good. Orchestra was average, and I played all the right notes. Score one for me.
Science was totally epic. We watched this really cool video about the flu. I love learning about weird diseases... (:
Gym was awesome. We had to do these horrid exersizes nonstop at each station, and we rotated like, every other minute. BUUUUT my teacher had good music playing the whole time, so I was singing and having a grand time. At the end of class, she gave me and my group each a mint because we had worked very well. And yeah, its just a mint, but no one else got any. (:

Spoiled siblings.

So today I auditions for my highschool's orchestra. I was sooo nervous, because orchestra is a huge deal to me.
And I made it! :D

I even texted my mother during school.
I was so happy.


Lolol no one seemed to care. Except my few friends.
My mother was so proud, she bought my brother a Blizzard.

*grumble grumble*
~.~

EEE.

SO.

I went to Walmart with my dad today. It was fun (
While I was there, I bought the newest Nancy Drew computer game: Alibi in Ashes. :D
Its sooo freakin' cool. I don't have school tomorrow. Guess what I'll be doing the whole day?  :D


Second topic:
FAREWEEEEELL <3
So, at my school, we have like, a Prom near the end of the year. And its called Farewell.
I really really want to go with this one guy, but hes also a close friend, so I don't know if he'd want to go... maybe if I just tell him that i want to go as friends. That might work.. (: And he's all woried he won't have anyone to go with.


Its just like, in foreeever. I don't want to have to wait so long! I wan't to get the most perfect dress, shoes, purse, etc EVER. Here are some ideas:

Whaaat.

Well my day royally sucked.

I had a great dream though, but it was stupid so I don't feel like sharing.

During math, we spent like an hour and a half talking about peace and raps and sad stories that made us who we are today. I felt like crying, just because a lot of stuff has been messed up in my life, and that made me think about it.

Then, later that day in art class, I got made fun of. Appearently it looks like I have a triangle of pimples, so people were saying that I was like Avatar.

Oh, theres nothing like being made fun of by your BIGGEST insecurity, seeing even your best friend laugh about it, and you have to just smile and think its funny.
And they were basically making fun of me because I never curse.

And the rest of the day, I was just like, totally ignored by everyone.

And its not like I can really talk to any of my good friends about this. Because its a long story. AYE.

I hate school.

I'm kind of dreading tomorrow, and its even a rewards day. Jeeze.

FOREVER ALONE.

During gym, I realized something as I watched someone I don't like flirt with my crush.

lolol I am forever alone.

But it is nice when my best friend who I haven't actually talked to in forever came and made sure he sat next to me during science. (:

So next Wednesday, I have auditions for my high school's orchestra, and I am super nervous. I'm going to be playing this (without the piano though) :

I mean, I have the right tempo, and have to song down, I'm just nervous. :S

I think its so awkward to be changing during gym and putting your stuff right next to your best friend's when someone I don't like comes right in between us. (lololol not while we're changing. xD)

And then they bring up how they owe everybody pens or pencils (still ignoring me) and I'm about to explode, remembering last year she lost my most favorite color pens EVER and never did anything to help get me more.

Jerk.

And then theres that awkward moment when you have to be the mom in your house because your mother never does the dishes or cleans up food or cleans up in general.

Dear Lord, I'm sorry for putting my ventings up here.

I need my colorful pens back. Someone buy me them. NOW. Before I explode and cause all the zombies to kill the world.

IM GETTING THIS TOMORROW <3333333

I'm so excited.

Toodles everyone!

Tiredd

I'm tired of doing stuff for people.
I just want to curl into a ball and sleep/read.

I came across a good song the other day that describes my position totally. Like, to the exact inch. xD

Dear lord, I could listen to that forever.

And this too.

Songs like these help me feel better after you know one of your haters was probably flirting with your crush the whole afternoon, because you can't trust her. Aye.

DEAR. LORD. I've been watching this so much, I'm all exctited for March. <3

I want to dance through life... but I keep missing the beat, or forgetting a step.

I want...

Hello yall, I'm tired of no one asking what I want. Or what I think we should do. So, I'm posting some things I want.

~ I want to be a dancer on Broadway.

~ I want to actually finish writing a story.

~ I want all the Call of Duty games.

~ I want someone to hold me in their arms and tell me I'm perfect.

~ I want him to ask me out. Soon, before I give up on him and move on. And seriously, he'd loose alot. I've liked him for 4 years.

~ I want to get a good grade in math.

~ I want to go on a shopping spree.

~ I want Normal thumbs.

~ I want a boyfriend.

~ I want a laptop.

~ I want people to stop being so freakin' loud and anoying.

~ I want to play in the Trans Siberian Orchestra.

~ I want to be first chair again.

~ I want to stay home all day and curl up in a ball.

~ I want to stop feeling forever alone.

~ I want to give you a hug.

~ I want him to know that his haircut makes him cute.

~ I want to know who is actually reading this.

~ I want to know if you care.

Toodles guys.

Showtunes.

I love showtunes. They make me feel so much better.
Like when I'm sitting eating a snack, and all my friends leave to hang out with other friends. *starts singing Wicked*
Or when I see my crush leave me to sit close to some other popular girl. *sings Sound of Music*
Or when I'm dancing my heart out and doing great, but no one gives me any room on stage, and I end up having to be near the back, and this girl won't get away from me *Sings AVPM*
asdfghkl.

Aye. (;

Today deffinetly had its ups and downs.
It wasn't perfect, but it was alright I suppose.

This one girl was being super loud at lunch, and gave me a head ache.
But my crush gave me some of his pretzel and said that even if we are zombies, we still need to stick together.
Near the end of the day, my one friend Neville was making fun of my best friend's short pinkies. Shes my twin, so I yelled at him to stop. And I didn't give him a high five.
So after that, I was sitting alone, laying my head down (i was so tired) and Neville came over and asked if I was ok. It was nice.

Cry.

This song is so sweet, it makes me cry. I want a boy to sing this to me.

URANUS.

Eeep.
Art class today consisted of me, and four other friends cracking Uranus jokes. Also your mom jokes. I laughed so hard, I almost died. :D
I had Reading Olympics after school (its where we read while running hurdles. LOL JK.) and it was pretty good.
THEN I WENT TO PLAY PRACTICE.
IT WAS GORGEOUS.
We learned like, two new dances and had some fun.
Then our teachers had people raise their hands and tell everyone who they look to when dancing.
My crush (for like, years.) walked right up behind me and said my name.
And like, five other people said me too.
I LIKE, DIED. <3

So proud..

So I have these terrible retainers. To keep my teeth straight and all.
Well, today, my orthodontist said I now only need to wear them at night :D
And I've only had them since November 1st. :D

Woot (:

Haare (;

It looks black, in some lights purple, and in others, red. It was supposed to be brown. :D

This is was happens when I'm home alone. Photo shoot (;
I apologize, I dont have my glasses on in some of these, and look stupid. :P

 

Bloggin'

Hello people of the Earth, Pigfarts, and where ever the heck the rest of you are.
I am Sophie.
I've had a blog before, but had to delete it due to bullying and fighting.
Woah, that makes me sound like a tough girl :D

Anywho, I'll post pictures of me and my hair for you loves later,
Ta ta for now :3